I love my smile. I think that’s my favorite part of myself, hands down.
There are definitely parts of my body that I have problems with. I think that’s true for everyone. And I think that’s an ongoing process towards liking myself as much as I like other parts.
I feel like body image definitely affects my confidence because there are days where I feel so strong and I feel beautiful, and then there are other days where I look down on myself and think ‘wow, I gained some weight while I was abroad,’ and I’m sure other people can relate to that, too.
It’s been a struggle. Over the break, I had to go shopping for jeans and I went up a size, and that never feels good.
I left the store and said, “Mom, I’m so fat,” and she said, “Mallory, what size did you get.” I told her I got a 28 long and she reminded me that that was only a size six.
So I think you have these moments where you have to check yourself. It’s hard to do that. It’s hard when you get into your head and maybe you don’t look exactly the way you used to and things are changing, but looking at that and not seeing it as a bad thing is important.
I always struggle when I see the photoshop ‘before and after’ pictures come out. Like what celebrities are putting on their Instagram versus what the reality is.
I know that on Snapchat—and I’m not a huge Kim Kardashian fan—but on Snapchat they showed that she had completely edited in her waist and her hips, and that’s a part of my body that I look at and wish sometimes that I could just take a magic marker and squeeze in a little bit.
When you see stuff like that, you just feel disheartened because maybe you see the picture and think ‘wow, I can have a great butt and have a slim waist,’ and it’s not the reality.
There’s editing that goes on. Social media promotes a lot of misconceptions about what a body can look like.
For me, it comes down to giving myself credit. Like today, I went to the gym and I felt horrible the entire time.
I was sweating and out of breath and only ran two miles, but felt like I ran a marathon.
In those moments, it’s really easy to think “I’m weak and out of shape,” but instead give yourself the credit. Say, “I went to the gym and I made myself run. I’m strong because I ran two miles.”
Sometimes changing the narrative for yourself would be my advice because it is not easy. I’m not a perfect person either, so I can always use that advice.