“It doesn’t really matter what you look like, but it matters how you feel about yourself.”
I think high school was where everyone started having insecurities.
High school is a very interesting place for most people, including myself. I was taller than most of the girls at school so it was already different for me.
Thinking about it now, I always perceived myself as bigger than the other girls when really I wasn’t. I used to have problems with my legs and stomach, and thought I was just on the chubby side.
I just had no idea what my body was doing to me at the time. I’d just tell myself that I would just start being healthy and watch what I eat. I ended up not eating.
That spiraled out of control to the point where I ended up being anorexic. It just got out of control for the most part.
While I was going through that, I still thought I was bigger than other girls. When people talk about body image issues, it is always perceived as being overweight or eating too much.
Anorexia is not being talked about when it comes to these types of issues and I think it should be. Anyways, I did end up going to therapy for about two years and that helped a lot.
My therapist was also a nutritionist, so she showed me what healthy things to eat without starving myself. She showed me I could eat and that I did not have to starve myself.
She also taught me to take better care of myself such as working out and meditating. I needed that more than anything.
Growing up, social media wasn’t as popular as it is now. I would say social media definitely plays a huge role when it comes to body image issues and insecurities in general.
Seeing all these Instagram models showing their perfect bodies really takes a toll on the girl or guy who doesn’t look like them.
We aren’t meant to look alike. It doesn’t really matter what you look like, but it matters how you feel about yourself.
Whether I gain weight or lose weight, it is okay at the end of the day because that’s not what’s important in life. What’s important is how I am to reach happiness in life.